12.12.97

notice me for one fucking time
feel me through my mind
just let go of your selfish ways
of your confused past broken days
look at me
touch me
hold me
please
can’t you feel it
the distance that is nearest
i don’t want to feel less than alone
smaller than i’ve grown
but you do this cuz you care?
to only let me in when no one else is there
you lay down next to me miles apart
while i become the furthest from your heart
well it doesn’t work for me anymore
pretending that you’ll pull me through your door
i want more from you than that
more than the pain felt from a silent slap
and so i take a stand
putting both feet down as i can
i’m ready to walk
to leave you without talk
but the moment that i raise
you speak words and make me stay
and there i start again
lying because i cannot win
addicted helpless to my lonely sin